December 2010
16 posts
When I was little, I always wondered what it felt like to be older and independent. I would always play pretend or mimic my elders to experience what I thought was “cool”. But what I’ve never obtain from the fake experience was how it felt mentally. When I finally grew up to be a teenager, I got dragged into drama, hit by that damn puberty, and had my first boyfriend. That was...
I no longer expect or hope. Need I say why? Well when things don’t go the way you planned, which most of the time it really doesn’t, you’ll it end up disappointed. I’ve been depressed for the longest time. To be honest, I’ve never been this depressed before for so long. Just a year ago, I didn’t even know how it felt to be depressed. Things have changed so much....
It just doesn't feel right to be friends with you,...
I am just so sick and tired of this. I want to be alright without you. I want to be able to go a month, a week, a day, an hour without thinking of you. Without wondering why it is you don’t care at all anymore. I just am so sick and tired of needing you in my life, knowing that you only make me sad.
When I was little, I had wads of stuffed animals...
If only you knew..
I ran away because I couldn’t face you or the truth. To be honest, I could live the rest of my life just fine without seeing you ever again, but the “what if’s” will forever haunt me. It never seems like we’re happy with where we’re standing. I’m sorry if I ever hurt, disappointed, or angered you. But sometimes, I do what I do.. all because I want...
You make me feel like an idiot.
Everything I say is said at the wrong time or said with the wrong words or said with the wrong emotion. But everything you say.. I take it in, no matter how sweet or harsh.
I wonder if people look at me and think " I wish I...
